Leading by example

 It can be tempting to share your own personal thoughts and opinions via social media. I was feeling tempted to say something today when Logan Paul was trending, but made the right choice to keep it to myself. I knew that the man has had a negative reputation, especially since a trip to Japan that got him in a lot of trouble. I knew of the incident involving him filming the body of a suicide victim in a forest. I also heard of his other shenanigans throughout that trip. What was the point of judging someone over something they did five years ago? He did not commit any heinous crimes and I'm sure he was sorry for what he did then. It is not like he goes to these places doing that same stuff over and over again. People do dumb and irresponsible things for attention. They can mature and change overtime. Logan Paul was definitely old enough to know better then, but everyone deserves forgiveness after some foolish mistake they once made. I don't believe I have heard of any new stories about him doing something like that again, especially not recently. I honestly find it harsh to punish someone over something they did some years ago, especially if they were sorry for it. People can change. With what I do, I especially need to set an example by not getting too personal or voicing my personal thoughts and opinions. I must be mature and responsible. That would get people to listen and respect you more.

A Niche

 I have not posted anything in this blog in a while and I had to pull back as the posts were recently becoming more about my own personal journey. I have talked about how everyone has a deep connection to nature and how many do not know it. I mentioned the four traditional elements and how we are connected to two of those and not just one(earth and fire, earth and water, air and water, air and fire). I posted about that some time ago. Now, I want to address how we each have a strong inclination to some natural force in the world. There are people who are highly perceptive of electrical currents and there are those attuned to plants. There may be people who might be keenly perceptive of anatomical workings of the body and those who specialize with sound and may be involved in music. This goes beyond finding an occupation. Understanding what you feel most connected to and keeps you feeling alive can in fact help carve your way to discovering your career of choice. If you found out what that is but still cannot figure out a career or dream occupation, then that's okay. I still have not really figured out what I want to do involving my deep connection to the earth and seismic energy. I have considered studying seismology but I don't really do well in school. It does not mean I'm not intelligent enough. I just have a hard time with concentration and being in one place for a long period of time in addition to the stress of meeting deadlines as well as the costs of going to school. I was always a right-brain oriented individual where math has never been my strong point and my talent is more in art. Besides, this involves a lot of feeling where I'm processing energy in my body from the earth instead of data on a computer. I believe it is crucial to find out what kind of connection one has to the natural world or they may lead a hollow life of superficiality and materialism and can ultimately lead to profound unhappiness. Find that source that keeps you alive. People end up feeling forced to choose a profession and they end up not enjoying it and lose sense of who they are. It has been extremely hard and frustrating trying to figure out what I can do and what I would want to do, but I realize I would be sorrowful if I made myself do something I was not interested in. It would just feel like a means to an end. I recently tried pursuing animation, but learned it wasn't what I thought it would be and therefor wouldn't care for it. I was just trying to jump ahead of myself and come up with something quick to get back to California. It was out of desperation. I miss those days where I was heavy into meditation and that spiritual lifestyle. I felt like I have drifted far away from it for a long time. Sometimes, a big tragedy is what it takes to come back around to those ways. In fact, that happens quite often. Being connected to sources outside of what has been built around us is beneficial on all levels.

Law of Attraction & Vibration

 You have heard of the Law of Attraction and how it works, right? You think about something and focus on it enough and you will eventually have it. However, as flawed human beings we can make the error of ending up attracting what we do not want. We all have a tendency to lapse into a habit of negative, doubtful, fearful thoughts and chronic complaining. I noticed that I have struggled with that for a while myself. I was for a while feeling frustrated, scared, and depressed about not getting where I needed to be in life. I was fearing that I have been lagging behind and fearing I will be with gray or white hair and wrinkles by the time the day comes.

Moving to Tennessee felt like deja vu from how I was depressed and desperate to get back to California to stay after my first trip there in November 2009. I was living in Florida then. It felt scarier this time because I felt like I was back to where I started 10 years ago and felt lost and overwhelmed. I was thinking I'm too old to start over again like that. What will I do?? I was also feeling angry at the thought of now being stuck in a small town where nothing ever happens and being barely visible to the world outside of this house. I realized that all this self-loathing and feeling bad about myself is only hurting me. I'm only attracting more of what I dislike when I do that. The Law of Attraction and Vibration are very much the same thing.

There is this saying that goes You do not attract what you want, but you attract what you are. This means that you can fool yourself into thinking you are going to attract something into your life by wanting it badly enough. That comes from a place of lack. That is where it can trick you down that road that feels like it will not end. Just because you appreciate your current situation does not mean the Universe will think you're content where you are and forget about your strongest desires. You are more likely to attract your dream that way than pining over it and feeling empty without it. That attitude only keeps it from coming. What you resist persists. Think about the best feeling you could possibly acquire and nurse it. You must change your thoughts in order to change your life into the life you really want.

Again, watch out for the wanting and longing part. Neediness begets neediness. I need to make that change myself, so I'm not just preaching to you. I am much wiser and more mature than I was 10, 11 years ago. It took me 3 years to finally move to California since my very first trip there. I waited a while. I recall being very sad and very frustrated a lot of those days during that period. I was very dependent and needy. It is different this time. It may be scarier as it feels like I'm left to my own devices this time. I don't want to be always needing help from my parents. I'm taking it further in art. I wish I could have made my stubborn, childish self sit down and stick with pursuing a goal in art a long time ago. Yet, I have no time to live in regret. All that matters is that I'm finally taking action now. In the meantime, I keep on stoking the positive feelings and believing that I'm already there. That is the way to go. Close that gap. The attitude where we see ourselves here and the thing we desire is far away on the other side is what keeps us from obtaining it. We have to really be aware of our thoughts and emotions at all times.

Everything Vibrates

 

I had a major realization the other day during downtime at my job. I was sitting outside in the back of the building viewing the hills and railroad tracks to the west. It was sunny and it felt perfect outside and I became perfectly present and still. I was feeling all sorts of vibrations in the ground - the constant hum of equipment from the building, nearby traffic, and the rumbling of the train coming and passing by. A high level of consciousness suddenly overcame me. I realized that everything is vibrating at various frequencies. I am deeply attuned to vibrations in and on the ground. I am extremely sensitive to that energy. At my workplace, I'm constantly feeling a lot of persistent vibrations. It may not only be coming from mechanical equipment, but the San Jacinto Fault is right next to where I work in Loma Linda. It almost makes me feel like I'm going crazy at times. I believe that my purpose here involves being highly aware of vibrations everywhere and influencing others around me in that way. I have always enjoyed the sounds of singing bowls. I would love to acquire one at some point. Energy storing up and moments leading to an earthquake can be compared to running the mallet around the rim of a singing bowl and then striking it and hearing the rich, lasting sound from the accumulation of that energy. The entire Universe is vibrating. Even objects that seem stationary vibrate to some degree. It feels like all the energy builds up inside of me and causes me pain and then an earthquake would hit and rid me of that pain and tension. Earthquakes have a vibrational frequency of 1-100 hertz. Deep frequency vibrations can relieve pain. I have discovered that I am able to subtly feel earthquakes from all over the world depending on the magnitude. I felt some faint vibrations that were the frequency of an earthquake and it came from a magnitude 5.1 off the coast of Oregon. This has happened before. I remember the first time being in 2010 when I was living in Florida. It was just months after my very first trip to California(first time on a tectonic plate boundary). Being deeply aware of the vibrational energy around you makes you connect to God(or Spirit). It compells you to become completely in the present moment. There could not be a more powerful feeling.

The Power of Thought

 It occurred to me today that it is possible to alleviate pain by changing your thoughts and beliefs. Earlier, I was feeling a sense of dread knowing that my period is around the corner. I have been suffering from endometriosis and I have been traumatized from all the pain. I felt that diet and exercise did not always work and the pain worsens before there is an earthquake close by. I have been having horrible anxiety from it. I was thinking about wanting to get a partial hysterectomy and how I have never been under the knife before in all the 30 years of my life. It made me feel depressed and ill inside. I have recently been despising my uterus and willing to blame it for me eventually becoming addicted to pain killers in the future. I have been thinking This thing inside of me has become a monster that needs to be put to death. I want it out. It not only causes me physical pain, but it possesses me too where I can be difficult to be around. Why continue to put up with something that causes me to suffer unduly? Why? It is so unfair. I would then sink into self-pity, making myself into a victim, feeling defeated and helpless. Today, I realize that there is a way to manage this without eventually having to turn to pain killers or an operation - Through prayer and changing my thoughts. I told myself that the first thing to do is to stop identifying as a sufferer of this disease. It is not who I am. The pain does not define me. I must separate from it. Whatever painful condition you are suffering from, stop identifying with it. I'm not saying to forget that there is something wrong or not seek treatment. Not identifying with the pain and suffering provides relief. You need to empower yourself. If you are in pain right now, know that it will pass. Picture it diminishing. There is actual scientific proof that this is effective. Think about healing and getting better. We all deserve to be happy and healthy.

Trusting your gut

I decided to hold off from posting in my Seismic Connections blog until I actually really feel something change in my body. I will also not post in my Seismic Fox blog unless a major earthquake happens somewhere in the world today as there has been a lot of serious quake activity going on in various places lately. I can always post to Twitter whenever I start having a feeling something is going on out there. I don't see the point in posting to the symptoms blog when there is almost nothing going on around here.

I tend to complain about how bad I feel from the lack of activity lately. I already established the fatigue/low energy, restlessness, and madness associated with the energy being stagnant and backed up for too long. I made that point. It also does not feel good to talk about how bad I feel. From now on, I want to avoid posting in that blog unless I feel something that gets me up on my feet. I even want to try to resist making a post if it is a more faint, subtle symptom that I practically feel all the time.

I realize that I need to trust that instinct or that gut feeling. I tend to fear that I'm going to miss something as there is no telling for sure what could happen next when it comes to this type of phenomena. This instinctual feeling applies to everything. If you listen to that, it can keep you from making everyday mistakes as well as potentially life-threatening situations. For example, you and someone else whether it be a friend decide to go for a hike in the woods. You come to this trail head and you have a dreadful feeling inside that there may be a bear somewhere off in there.

It is better safe than sorry, so you and your friend decide to leave and do something else like go to a nature park that is safer with enough people around. I admit that I have not always been right on point with this. In fact, I don't feel like I did enough to put it out there that a major earthquake may be imminent somewhere. I have been having a feeling a couple of days in advance that Southern Mexico may be a candidate for the next big quake, but brushed it off thinking that region already had its big one in 2017. It was a magnitude 8. It haunted me all day when it actually happened.

Although I indicated that there may be more dangerous earthquake activity imminent in parts of the world somewhere, I feel like I should have done more and specified. I should have paid thorough attention to the potential impending danger somewhere out there and scope out the potential areas that may go off next. I was more preoccupied with the lack of activity here in Southern California instead. From now on, I am going to practice paying better attention to my gut feelings. This applies strongly to everyone with every area in life. It applies to simple everyday things and it can also save your life as well as others.

Enjoying the silence

One of the challenges I face is how I tend to be impatient and wish for some exciting change to occur. Even though the strain energy from deep in the earth does really affect me and my moods, I admit that I have been unsatisfied and want something I have not experienced before. I moved out here 7 years ago to fulfill this dream of sensing earthquakes before they happen. I knew Southern California was long overdue for a major earthquake, but it still has not budged one bit. I get afraid of being old or middle-aged by the time something big finally happens. That has been my greatest fear.

I have prayed that if it is going to stay like this for much longer, that I move somewhere else more active. I may have been successful in feeling things before these small quakes here and larger events around the world, but I have been needing more of a challenge. I have been wanting to know what to expect when a big one happens and if I will be experiencing a lot more pain. I have been uncertain, not only because I have not experienced a big one in this area, but also because it is not like a fault plans to go off in a full-fledged rupture. They suddenly slip. 

Earthquakes initially start off small, but accelerate into large events in a flash, at astonishing speeds(7-10,000 miles per hour). That being said, we all become bored and frustrated with the same old everyday. The monotony can become unbearable after a while. We get afraid that it is going to be this way forever. Thus, it is important to remember the saying: What you resist

persists. Complaining about how there is nothing going on in your life does not improve the situation. It just keeps you stuck in it. One thing to think about is how to not take this for granted. Enjoy the peace while you can because you might miss it.
Whenever things finally change, it will never be the same again. There will be new challenges and strife that come with it. There will likely be a price to pay. For instance, if you

win a million dollars, you will have to work harder to keep up with that much money and worry about it eventually running out. If you finally land your dream career in acting, there will be a lot of pressure involved in that. There will be no rest for the weary. Enjoy this period of peace and quiet while you can. I'm also speaking for myself. It is huge for me. Whenever the activity here and/or everywhere else is completely bound up, I go into it deeply without reacting to or judging the negative emotions associated with it. I feel it burn deep inside of me.

It is okay to not feel happy about the lack of event or excitement. The best thing you could do is to be in the current moment, accepting how you feel without judging it or acting out. By doing that, you are resisting what is which is the now. You are worried about the future and feeling sad about the past. The present is the only place where you can find true happiness. 12 years ago, I was reading these books by spiritual teacher Ekhart Tolle. He teaches you how to be in the present moment and the illusion of time and also how to not be consumed in your thoughts and emotions. I have drifted far away from that over the years. I need to return to that lifestyle.