One of the challenges I face is how I tend to be impatient and wish for some exciting change to occur. Even though the strain energy from deep in the earth does really affect me and my moods, I admit that I have been unsatisfied and want something I have not experienced before. I moved out here 7 years ago to fulfill this dream of sensing earthquakes before they happen. I knew Southern California was long overdue for a major earthquake, but it still has not budged one bit. I get afraid of being old or middle-aged by the time something big finally happens. That has been my greatest fear.
I have prayed that if it is going to stay like this for much longer, that I move somewhere else more active. I may have been successful in feeling things before these small quakes here and larger events around the world, but I have been needing more of a challenge. I have been wanting to know what to expect when a big one happens and if I will be experiencing a lot more pain. I have been uncertain, not only because I have not experienced a big one in this area, but also because it is not like a fault plans to go off in a full-fledged rupture. They suddenly slip.
Earthquakes initially start off small, but accelerate into large events in a flash, at astonishing speeds(7-10,000 miles per hour). That being said, we all become bored and frustrated with the same old everyday. The monotony can become unbearable after a while. We get afraid that it is going to be this way forever. Thus, it is important to remember the saying: What you resist
persists. Complaining about how there is nothing going on in your life does not improve the situation. It just keeps you stuck in it. One thing to think about is how to not take this for granted. Enjoy the peace while you can because you might miss it.
Whenever things finally change, it will never be the same again. There will be new challenges and strife that come with it. There will likely be a price to pay. For instance, if you
win a million dollars, you will have to work harder to keep up with that much money and worry about it eventually running out. If you finally land your dream career in acting, there will be a lot of pressure involved in that. There will be no rest for the weary. Enjoy this period of peace and quiet while you can. I'm also speaking for myself. It is huge for me. Whenever the activity here and/or everywhere else is completely bound up, I go into it deeply without reacting to or judging the negative emotions associated with it. I feel it burn deep inside of me.
It is okay to not feel happy about the lack of event or excitement. The best thing you could do is to be in the current moment, accepting how you feel without judging it or acting out. By doing that, you are resisting what is which is the now. You are worried about the future and feeling sad about the past. The present is the only place where you can find true happiness. 12 years ago, I was reading these books by spiritual teacher Ekhart Tolle. He teaches you how to be in the present moment and the illusion of time and also how to not be consumed in your thoughts and emotions. I have drifted far away from that over the years. I need to return to that lifestyle.
