A Niche

 I have not posted anything in this blog in a while and I had to pull back as the posts were recently becoming more about my own personal journey. I have talked about how everyone has a deep connection to nature and how many do not know it. I mentioned the four traditional elements and how we are connected to two of those and not just one(earth and fire, earth and water, air and water, air and fire). I posted about that some time ago. Now, I want to address how we each have a strong inclination to some natural force in the world. There are people who are highly perceptive of electrical currents and there are those attuned to plants. There may be people who might be keenly perceptive of anatomical workings of the body and those who specialize with sound and may be involved in music. This goes beyond finding an occupation. Understanding what you feel most connected to and keeps you feeling alive can in fact help carve your way to discovering your career of choice. If you found out what that is but still cannot figure out a career or dream occupation, then that's okay. I still have not really figured out what I want to do involving my deep connection to the earth and seismic energy. I have considered studying seismology but I don't really do well in school. It does not mean I'm not intelligent enough. I just have a hard time with concentration and being in one place for a long period of time in addition to the stress of meeting deadlines as well as the costs of going to school. I was always a right-brain oriented individual where math has never been my strong point and my talent is more in art. Besides, this involves a lot of feeling where I'm processing energy in my body from the earth instead of data on a computer. I believe it is crucial to find out what kind of connection one has to the natural world or they may lead a hollow life of superficiality and materialism and can ultimately lead to profound unhappiness. Find that source that keeps you alive. People end up feeling forced to choose a profession and they end up not enjoying it and lose sense of who they are. It has been extremely hard and frustrating trying to figure out what I can do and what I would want to do, but I realize I would be sorrowful if I made myself do something I was not interested in. It would just feel like a means to an end. I recently tried pursuing animation, but learned it wasn't what I thought it would be and therefor wouldn't care for it. I was just trying to jump ahead of myself and come up with something quick to get back to California. It was out of desperation. I miss those days where I was heavy into meditation and that spiritual lifestyle. I felt like I have drifted far away from it for a long time. Sometimes, a big tragedy is what it takes to come back around to those ways. In fact, that happens quite often. Being connected to sources outside of what has been built around us is beneficial on all levels.

Law of Attraction & Vibration

 You have heard of the Law of Attraction and how it works, right? You think about something and focus on it enough and you will eventually have it. However, as flawed human beings we can make the error of ending up attracting what we do not want. We all have a tendency to lapse into a habit of negative, doubtful, fearful thoughts and chronic complaining. I noticed that I have struggled with that for a while myself. I was for a while feeling frustrated, scared, and depressed about not getting where I needed to be in life. I was fearing that I have been lagging behind and fearing I will be with gray or white hair and wrinkles by the time the day comes.

Moving to Tennessee felt like deja vu from how I was depressed and desperate to get back to California to stay after my first trip there in November 2009. I was living in Florida then. It felt scarier this time because I felt like I was back to where I started 10 years ago and felt lost and overwhelmed. I was thinking I'm too old to start over again like that. What will I do?? I was also feeling angry at the thought of now being stuck in a small town where nothing ever happens and being barely visible to the world outside of this house. I realized that all this self-loathing and feeling bad about myself is only hurting me. I'm only attracting more of what I dislike when I do that. The Law of Attraction and Vibration are very much the same thing.

There is this saying that goes You do not attract what you want, but you attract what you are. This means that you can fool yourself into thinking you are going to attract something into your life by wanting it badly enough. That comes from a place of lack. That is where it can trick you down that road that feels like it will not end. Just because you appreciate your current situation does not mean the Universe will think you're content where you are and forget about your strongest desires. You are more likely to attract your dream that way than pining over it and feeling empty without it. That attitude only keeps it from coming. What you resist persists. Think about the best feeling you could possibly acquire and nurse it. You must change your thoughts in order to change your life into the life you really want.

Again, watch out for the wanting and longing part. Neediness begets neediness. I need to make that change myself, so I'm not just preaching to you. I am much wiser and more mature than I was 10, 11 years ago. It took me 3 years to finally move to California since my very first trip there. I waited a while. I recall being very sad and very frustrated a lot of those days during that period. I was very dependent and needy. It is different this time. It may be scarier as it feels like I'm left to my own devices this time. I don't want to be always needing help from my parents. I'm taking it further in art. I wish I could have made my stubborn, childish self sit down and stick with pursuing a goal in art a long time ago. Yet, I have no time to live in regret. All that matters is that I'm finally taking action now. In the meantime, I keep on stoking the positive feelings and believing that I'm already there. That is the way to go. Close that gap. The attitude where we see ourselves here and the thing we desire is far away on the other side is what keeps us from obtaining it. We have to really be aware of our thoughts and emotions at all times.

Everything Vibrates

 

I had a major realization the other day during downtime at my job. I was sitting outside in the back of the building viewing the hills and railroad tracks to the west. It was sunny and it felt perfect outside and I became perfectly present and still. I was feeling all sorts of vibrations in the ground - the constant hum of equipment from the building, nearby traffic, and the rumbling of the train coming and passing by. A high level of consciousness suddenly overcame me. I realized that everything is vibrating at various frequencies. I am deeply attuned to vibrations in and on the ground. I am extremely sensitive to that energy. At my workplace, I'm constantly feeling a lot of persistent vibrations. It may not only be coming from mechanical equipment, but the San Jacinto Fault is right next to where I work in Loma Linda. It almost makes me feel like I'm going crazy at times. I believe that my purpose here involves being highly aware of vibrations everywhere and influencing others around me in that way. I have always enjoyed the sounds of singing bowls. I would love to acquire one at some point. Energy storing up and moments leading to an earthquake can be compared to running the mallet around the rim of a singing bowl and then striking it and hearing the rich, lasting sound from the accumulation of that energy. The entire Universe is vibrating. Even objects that seem stationary vibrate to some degree. It feels like all the energy builds up inside of me and causes me pain and then an earthquake would hit and rid me of that pain and tension. Earthquakes have a vibrational frequency of 1-100 hertz. Deep frequency vibrations can relieve pain. I have discovered that I am able to subtly feel earthquakes from all over the world depending on the magnitude. I felt some faint vibrations that were the frequency of an earthquake and it came from a magnitude 5.1 off the coast of Oregon. This has happened before. I remember the first time being in 2010 when I was living in Florida. It was just months after my very first trip to California(first time on a tectonic plate boundary). Being deeply aware of the vibrational energy around you makes you connect to God(or Spirit). It compells you to become completely in the present moment. There could not be a more powerful feeling.