You have heard of the Law of Attraction and how it works, right? You think about something and focus on it enough and you will eventually have it. However, as flawed human beings we can make the error of ending up attracting what we do not want. We all have a tendency to lapse into a habit of negative, doubtful, fearful thoughts and chronic complaining. I noticed that I have struggled with that for a while myself. I was for a while feeling frustrated, scared, and depressed about not getting where I needed to be in life. I was fearing that I have been lagging behind and fearing I will be with gray or white hair and wrinkles by the time the day comes.
Moving to Tennessee felt like deja vu from how I was depressed and desperate to get back to California to stay after my first trip there in November 2009. I was living in Florida then. It felt scarier this time because I felt like I was back to where I started 10 years ago and felt lost and overwhelmed. I was thinking I'm too old to start over again like that. What will I do?? I was also feeling angry at the thought of now being stuck in a small town where nothing ever happens and being barely visible to the world outside of this house. I realized that all this self-loathing and feeling bad about myself is only hurting me. I'm only attracting more of what I dislike when I do that. The Law of Attraction and Vibration are very much the same thing.
There is this saying that goes You do not attract what you want, but you attract what you are. This means that you can fool yourself into thinking you are going to attract something into your life by wanting it badly enough. That comes from a place of lack. That is where it can trick you down that road that feels like it will not end. Just because you appreciate your current situation does not mean the Universe will think you're content where you are and forget about your strongest desires. You are more likely to attract your dream that way than pining over it and feeling empty without it. That attitude only keeps it from coming. What you resist persists. Think about the best feeling you could possibly acquire and nurse it. You must change your thoughts in order to change your life into the life you really want.
Again, watch out for the wanting and longing part. Neediness begets neediness. I need to make that change myself, so I'm not just preaching to you. I am much wiser and more mature than I was 10, 11 years ago. It took me 3 years to finally move to California since my very first trip there. I waited a while. I recall being very sad and very frustrated a lot of those days during that period. I was very dependent and needy. It is different this time. It may be scarier as it feels like I'm left to my own devices this time. I don't want to be always needing help from my parents. I'm taking it further in art. I wish I could have made my stubborn, childish self sit down and stick with pursuing a goal in art a long time ago. Yet, I have no time to live in regret. All that matters is that I'm finally taking action now. In the meantime, I keep on stoking the positive feelings and believing that I'm already there. That is the way to go. Close that gap. The attitude where we see ourselves here and the thing we desire is far away on the other side is what keeps us from obtaining it. We have to really be aware of our thoughts and emotions at all times.
